This Blog is my way of expressing my feelings and keeping family and friends up to date with the progress of my war to defeat Cervical Cancer.
Two years down the line and the Big C is back. Another journey into the unknown. Telling family and friends is the hardest thing to do. Jumbled up emotions that just hit you out of nowhere. The pain, the feeling sick.
But guess what? It is not going to beat me.
I’m strong, and the love I have for my family, friends and gorgeous grand children, with another on the way, who I WILL see grow up. It is this that will keep me going and kick Cancers arse.
By the way, a diet of Ready Brek, Mash, Gravy and Turmeric Latte is not all that bad. But that is a story for another post.
Before you read the posts please read the Background page.
2014, we had it all planned. We were both hitting the big 50 and to celebrate we were taking the two oldest Grand daughters to Disneyland Paris in January of that year. We had a great time and so did the girls.
We had also booked to go on a Cruise in the Summer. This was nothing out of the ordinary because we usually cruised for our main holiday, but this was on a brand new, innovative, Royal Caribbean Cruise Lines ship called Anthem of the Seas.
Then the health issues began. Just after Ian’s 50th Birthday he suffered a heart attack and had to have 6 months off work recovering. Then, just after he returned to work, in November 2014, I was diagnosed, initially, with Anaemia and then with Undifferentiated Cancer of the Womb. Or was it Cancer of the Cervix? They didn’t know because they couldn’t find the source.
Various tests were completed just before Christmas and the Professionals were still no nearer determining where the source of the Cancer was.
We decided to go to Nice in the South of France between Christmas and the New Year, to get away from it all.
On our return home the inevitable letter had arrived requesting that I attend the Gynaecology Oncology Clinic. We both attended the Clinic and the treatment was for me to have a radical hysterectomy at the end of January in Leeds St James Hospital.
I had the surgery and was discharged four days after the operation. Within two days of returning home I ended up in Calderdale Royal Hospital for over three weeks with Sepsis!!! Eventually I returned home, that is when I began to hate Ian with a passion. He had to give me the Heparin Injections to stop blood clots following surgery. It was horrible!!!! Ian even bought me cream to numb the area before the injection but it didn’t help. I still can’t bring myself to forgive him even now!!!! Only joking.
Shortly after this Ian took Voluntary Redundancy from his job of 29 years as an IT Training and Support Officer. Also our youngest Grand Daughter (so far) was born in April 2015 with Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome (HLHS). Essentially, she was born with only half a working heart.
So after all this I attended the Clinic for check ups every 3 months and all had been fine, up until February 2017…………
It is 8.00am on Sunday morning, one more day to go and I’m there. I went home for the day yesterday so the weekend is going so much quicker. At home I sorted the spare room, with Ian, ready for the delivery of all the TPN equipment. That was a job and a half! So …
What a morning, I woke up feeling great, a bit tired after the 5 trips to the toilet but no sickness or stomach cramps, then it all fell apart!!! I decided to try ready brek for my breakfast, big mistake, the sickness and cramps came back, I have felt lousy all day. I had a …
It is now Monday morning and I have another week to go, seems like ages away, the days are really slow in this place and the evenings so much longer. There is no banter or joking with the staff everything is so serious and very very slow. Think this might be me very soon. I …